So today starts the official public count down. I am embarrassed to announce it. My weight.... drum roll please... is 251. Holy Balls. I've been struggling with this for a long time, and I can say that it WAS higher. I got rid of that weight so we will call this our official "Starting Point." Not many women would come out of their bathroom declaring "HEY YOU OVER THERE I'M FAT!" This is my moment. My moment to come to terms with reality. This is real life here... no matter how much you weigh, what you look like, how much you vomit in the toilet to achieve unrealistic goals. It is time to get in touch with yourself. I don't want to be one of those rail thin models with elbows that can cut glass. I want to be healthy. As far as I'm concerned that means getting down to the 150lb mark. Technically I will still be "overweight" at that point, but hey, who's counting? Oh yeah... thats me... Weight is just a number anyways... the number I look forward to most to make smaller is my pants. Go from an 18 to a 12, and God forbid... a 10? Thats reasonable. Thats real.
This marks day three of the SlimFast regime. So far no major slip ups. A shake and a banana for breakfast today... lunch is going to be solid food... and dare I say it... Dinner will be a shake and an orange or apple. I am looking forward to Sunday though cause I can finally have one of the Pepsi cans that I foolishly bought before starting this diet on a whim. They just look at me every day screaming "drink me!!!! drink me!!!!" Oh how I want to drink thee Pepsi... but alas, our time this year will be short. My butt needs to be smaller before I get on a plane for 10+ hours sitting next to someone who is probably not going to be small... I hope I get lucky on this long flight and get a row with an empty seat...
Honestly... Honesty is a bitch. Here's to clawing her eyes out!
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