Hello internet land,
My name is Alyssa and I am here to tell you all about my adventures as a plus sized college student in the work force. I have recently decided to chronicle my voyage of getting back down to a normal size (because I was at some point in my life). I currently weigh too much, and I would like to slim down by quite a bit. Maybe when I feel that my cajones have grown in size I will give you some real numbers. I have struggled with weight basically since I moved to Texas and had to start my life from scratch, this is me throwing out the old stuff in the pantry and starting from scratch again.
In Texas we have the well known "Everything is bigger in Texas" and that is no lie. I look around while I walk around on campus at Texas State University and think about how I sure am glad I am not the biggest person here. I actually get excited when I see larger folks than myself wandering around or trying to squeeze into the desk in the next row. These desks were designed for anorexic people, so a lot of regular students have issues with them as well. Our campus is a beautiful place with great trees, wildlife, architecture and giant obnoxious hills that can make a grown man cry.
I started this crazy idea of weight loss and self deprivation as a "New Years Resolution" and I am somewhat regretting it. The first thing I had to kick was the soda. Sweet, fizzy, delicious Pepsi had to go. Unfortunately I had 2 cases just sitting around my apartment so obviously I had to finish those off first. I hate to waste. I am a clean your plate kind of girl... So once I finally finished off the sodas my withdrawals began. I knew this would happen because of my work in the medical field. Luckily I was smart enough to attempt to wean myself down and then go cold turkey. I went two weeks without having any soda and then I cracked the other day. I was at taco bell and the next thing I know I am sucking down a drink. Thankfully I had the sense to order diet instead of the hard stuff. This giving up soda business is very tricky.
In addition to my self flagellation by not drinking soda all day every day I have severely cut down my fast food consumption. That was actually a decision to save money because I have a trip coming up, but more on that later. This year I have only gone out 5 or 6 times and of those times I have only paid for two. Not too shabby. There is one thing I will not give up and that is red meat. I don't care how bad it may or may not be for you, but I love steak. I love it so much. I love steak to the ends of the earth. My favorite steak place (or at least where I can get my fix when I need it) is Chipotle. I love that place too. Cutting it out of my life is terribly hard. I crave pizza when I am at work, I have to actively think about what my next move will be when it comes to a tasty snack during work, or what kind of dinner I might have after work. What kind of food I will stuff myself with before work...
I know what a junkie feels like going into rehab, except its much easier and legal for me to self medicate. My methadone clinic serves burgers and fries.
As this is my first blog in a very long time I realize how horribly un-organized my writing is, and I promise to keep you updated and improve on my writing. Since the move from myspace to facebook happened My blogging was cut off cold turkey and that was another addiction I had to get over. I can't gurantee that this blog will have a 100% dedication to my struggle with not eating crappy delicious foods, but I can promise that it will have thought provoking content that will sometimes delight, offend, and project my own agenda. I need to say stuff here and get things out of my mind so maybe I will be able to stop taking Ambien at night just to get a proper nights sleep.
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